“I am tired of punching in the wind.” – Organs, Of Monsters and Men
Your mind is racing.
Your chest hurts.
You’re not quite sure if you need to sit or run 10 miles.
You snap at a loved one.
You turn inward – away from those around you.
You can’t look anyone in the eye.
And you’re always looking for a way out.
Out of the room.
Out of a conversation.
Out of this madness that doesn’t quite seem real.
And then. Then, things start to quiet down.
You find some peace.
You see the sun shine.
You can see in color again.
You laugh a bit.
And smile a little brighter.
But you look back at the path you bulldozed.
The friends you cut out.
The passions you lost interest in.
The mess you created.
And the grey cloud comes back.
And it starts over again.
The sadness, the madness, the inability to focus.
How do you stop the vicious cycle of anxiety and depression? The ups and downs that take over and run your life?
I don’t have an end-all, be-all answer. Trust me, I wish I did.
But when the world feels like it’s falling down around you. Like you’re punching in the wind. Take control.
I know, if only it were that easy.
Start small. Start with one goal you’d like to accomplish this week.
What is it? Do an act of kindness? Workout three days of the week? Volunteer? Get out of bed with a smile?
Set out to make that goal your mission. And when you accomplish it, celebrate.
And if you don’t accomplish it, try again next week. Your progress will look a lot different than the person next to you. But progress is progress, no matter how slow.
Recovery doesn’t happen over night, but it starts somewhere. It starts with realizing you ARE worth it. And you WILL overcome this.
So, as we head into another week, as we feel the anxiety going into the unknown, as we see a blank space, let’s realize we’re in control.
I’ll share my goal for this week if you share yours…
My goal: To be a kinder person. To watch every word that comes out of my mouth, making sure it’s kind and positive. It’s a lofty goal, but by the end of the week, I will have made a more conscious effort than I did last week to be a better person, and that’s what matters, right? Forward motion.
Recovery starts now if you let it.
Here’s to a new week and a new you.